Not Yours Trilogy
BDSM, MfM, age gap, emotional
Not Yours to Keep
Book 1
Clara’s Dom wants to share her with his best friend—a man scarred by his past and terrified by the possessiveness she awakens in him.
My world is thrown into chaos when my Dom, Markus, decides to share me with his best friend, Grigory Volkov.
Grigory is twice my age, my greatest musical idol, and a dominant whose need for control bleeds into every part of his life. Submitting to him feels instinctive—like breathing. But Grigory hasn’t had a submissive in years, and opening himself again comes with consequences.
Scarred by his past and overwhelmed by the pull between us, he keeps me at arm’s length even as he draws me deeper under his control.
Subdrops, confusion, and aching vulnerability follow as I struggle to navigate the new dynamic—caught between the storm of Grigory’s dominance and the steady safety of Markus’s familiar arms.
This book explores a dysfunctional Dom/sub MfM dynamic, filled with emotional turbulence, mistakes, and raw intensity.
If you’re looking for an easy, steamy read and a healthy representation of D/s, this is not it. But if you’re ready for a deep dive into the complexities of obsession, emotional scars, and a tumultuous three-way dynamic, this is the book for you.
Trigger warnings: Dub con, MfM, age gap, Dom/sub, various BDSM play, lack of aftercare, subdrops, feelings of abandonment, strong emotional turmoil, emotional roller coaster, discipline & spankings (also in piano lessons), sadism/masochism, abuse of power
“When I say I devoured this…. I mean DEVOURED.”
– Kaitlyn, Amazon review
“This book had the grace and finesse and feel of a beautifully composed ballet performance.”
– Bookish_Mom, Amazon review
“The writing was so real and raw.”
– Frida, Goodreads review
“I felt Clara’s emotions seep into my pores and choke me.”
— Tyla, Goodreads review
“This is an emotional journey that will have you gasping for air.”
— Elizabeth, Amazon review
If I Were Yours
Book 2
The man I love and the man I need. Can I have them both?
Saying goodbye to Markus at the airport is bittersweet. Three months together gone in the blink of an eye. Now we’re back to a routine dictated by his busy career.
But I won’t be alone. He’s handing me over to his best friend, Grigory Volkov—the man who awakens a pulsing desire to submit within my core, and the man who has hurt me countless times.
Slowly, my trust grows as I give in to the steady current of his overbearing control. But as I grow closer to Grigory, I drift away from Markus, and soon I’m caught between my instinctual need for one man and my love for the other.
Age gap, why choose, BDSM romance that delves deep into the raw emotions of an MfM Dom/sub dynamic.
Warning: This book contains explicit sexual content, BDSM scenes, and dubious consent. It is a very emotional read. See full trigger warning list on author website.
Trigger warnings: Dub con, MfM, age gap, Dom/sub, various BDSM play, emotional turmoil/roller coaster, degradation play, verbal humiliation, sadism/masochism, breath play, discipline & spankings, licking up sperm and her own juices, whipping, knife play (cutting)
Yours to Keep
Book 3
The final book about Clara, Grigory, and Markus.